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  She taught me then (and many

  years of colors later)

  what distinctive manners meant.

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  A Spider

  So many lines about the wind I weave.

  So many lines, some of them taut

  with particular gestures, some of them caught

  on the edge of a house, or torn

  and flapping in a violent storm.

  So many thought-weighted, rock-ripped, time-worn

  in the obstacled present.

  No two the same, none spun as magnificently

  as I aim them to be, most blown away.

  All I can do is wind what courses through

  my spirit, trembling instrumentold battered frame

  on which the elements pour, play on, accrue

  (I'd call it a lyre, but that would be too gay)

  then send those filaments of soul

  into sheer absence, needling the material

  with a pronged and strange capacity.

  The lines I make begin to shake things free

  and yet fold brilliant glimmers of their colors

  into a tapestry both false and brave.

  At first, I only grasped the threads of others

  but soon learned all would break, and none would save.

  So many lines about the wind I weave.

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  The Man by the River

  The man by the river let no one in.

  The man by the river grew pale and thin.

  He lived in a house on the edge of the woods

  where the marsh wind blows and the dark creeps in.

  On days of sun he'd stay inside

  and pace, and question himself out loud

  why his true love left, why his mother died,

  why a vulture circled the wide blue sky

  On days the air turned damp and dim

  he'd walk from his house and the wind-tossed pines

  down his father's hill to the changing strand

  where waves of green met grains of sand.

  The wind plucked on an instrument

  that no one human hand could fit.

  He watched the restless sea and land

  find lines of truth to move beyond.

  He watched the waves sweep twigs and bones

  to shore, and sweep them back again

  more fragile from the dry, hot sun.

  The wind rolled dreams along the sand.

  The light passed over his youth one day

  And flocks of dark birds lighted down

  each year for the seeds on his father's land

  and the berries that clung to his father's tree.

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  Banquet

  The daffodils are expectant.

  On the fringes of Spring

  they are waiting.

  Be glad. Spread cheer.

  Do not let the fabric

  of joy disappear

  Benevolence

  must be like this, appearing

  suddenly on the margins

  of our lust for change.

  It is close. Too close.

  We grow used to it

  with its colors and bells,

  its bright, slippered feet.

  Delight, delight,

  the soul is right,

  say the daffodils. Tonight

  may be their last. The meadows

  confused with praise

  warm mild days

  then the crotchety winter

  laying his rough hands

  on the flower beds.

  What is it he wants with them?

  Their hopes are not hidden.

  They open themselves

  completely,

  as if they want to be touched,

  gold empty cups

  for someone to fill.

  They are not so innocent.

  They would feel and feel.

  The liquor they offer

  is consciousness.

  Even if he drains them,

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  even if he destroys

  their silks and stems,

  he will have to go home

  eventually, he will have to retreat

  from the garden alone.

  Of this, they're aware.

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  To Night

  I don't want to be afraid of you

  and yet I am.

  You are the tapestry

  of my mortality.

  You are the arbor of sound

  when sound is through with me,

  threats and grasses plaited through your hem.

  And in the deeper places,

  the center I can't thumb,

  there are colors, chants,

  descriptionless

  wild faces.

  If you are a woman

  you have burdens.

  You were never light.

  Socrates felt that night

  was when we start to see,

  when the philosophers

  emptied their hands

  of common pleasure:

  no figs on plates,

  or wine,

  or wordless measure,

  just perfect quiet

  as the soul sinks

  and wisdom rises

  from the lower kingdom

  where she holds court

  with her noble spirits . . .

  She would not abandon

  the light of the mind

  that had shown

  such graces

  and Socrates was about to die

  when he explained this.

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  On the Nature of Beauty

  There are so many edges to things:

  this lamp, this wall, this table.

  Tonight, even a question

  has clean dimensions. Outside, sounds rise

  through aisles of grass,

  ridges of bark, larva, wings.

  There are so many edges to things;

  for instance, the tablet of dusk

  has been broken into pieces

  by darkening trees

  or whittled, maybe, by an old artiste

  sitting on his porch in the sky.

  Who is in love with wholes,

  with the blurred manteau

  of evening, eternally floating down

  over every brittle figure,

  turning them into the ground?

  Who wouldn't rather create a figure,

  regal, discontinuous,

  surreal and extraneous,

  but as essential to the sky

  as the eye is?

  On land, there are so many edges,

  we have to hold on to them

  dearly, they become our anthem,

  what we run our tongues over,

  what we run our hands over,

  the bodies we touch,

  the lines we engage,

  even the loves we leave behind

  to move onto the hard, lonely stage

  we are always on the verge of.

  We do not really want to be saved

  from the shortcomings

  of hands. We do not want the whole,

  serene, mellifluous, unscaled,

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  though we may strive to get a look at it.

  So when we find the beautiful,

  whatever it may mean,

  however it is changing,

  we feel the presence of something

  (maybe it is wings)

  sprouting, prickling, burning,

  giving us the edges again

  of our own limited range,

  spurring the fenced-in being

  when we lay eyes on it,

  the beautiful,

  the thing that stops our heart,

  the act that seems worth a good try,

  and it is, even for a minute,

  that being ready to fly.

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  Romantic Relief

  The trees l
ook like women in beautiful dresses,

  the blue sky their background of cloudy excesses.

  To be all alone in a difficult world

  is not what we're fearing. They dangle their tresses

  as if they were women with answers, not guesses.

  To be all alone in the world isn't hard.

  These plunges of feeling, these lithe, stubborn branches

  of brown and bright green, these decorative phrases

  that seem like a frivolous dance in the mind . . .

  We know how to be with ourselves in the world

  say the women. They move to an army of breezes.

  Who cares if there's not a whole army of words,

  strong soldiers, to take the slim trees in their arms

  and lavish their bodies with verbal caresses

  until they are calm? Who cares if a world

  where the soldiers, the women, the phrases are held,

  isn't real? We stay with ourselves and are charmed.

  The trees are grown women and innocent guesses

  and words in the air and abstractions and bards

  of some deeply historical verse in the heart.

  The women are laughing. The branches grow firm,

  the green leaves transgressive. We all fall apart.

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  Negation

  The self does not find itself in the long road.

  The self does not find itself in the dimming sky.

  The self does not find itself in the couple with the baby

  who smile as if they know where, when, and why,

  nor in the mountains rising heavily

  like the bent backs of monks, indifferent and old,

  nor in the ruddy vegetable garden

  where a figure works quietly, at the center of the world.

  What it is not seems to have no end.

  A river of silence is all it contains,

  winding and winding through mysterious forests.

  Maybe it is better not to see what is missed,

  to just float on the surface of billowing dusk

  where distinguishing edges are melting like lovers

  and the air turns a dense and improbable hue

  softening, for a minute, the absence of an 'I' and a 'You.'

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  Landscape

  In the neighborhood of sorrow

  we move because we grieve.

  The houses are low and squat,

  the air heavy, the boughs gnarled

  with bending toward light.

  If you walk along that winding street

  shadowed by fate

  you might hear music

  drifting out of a window, someone playing

  not quite well, not quite badly,

  a tune that means nothing to you.

  In the neighborhood of sorrow

  things go about their business:

  the birds, bees, etcetera,

  almost indivisible

  from the monotone sky

  except for a small cry

  here and there, the casual humming

  of eternity. In the underbrush

  you'll still find the twining, lush

  insistence of a life

  these vines, for example,

  coiled around what's young

  and delicate: birch, ash, Virginia pine

  but that's just denial

  doing what it can.

  At one house, a cat

  lays a truth from the forest

  on the doorstepa dead infant snake,

  raw stomach, smooth new back

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  of yellow gems. The practiced griever

  opens the door

  to find it, then throws it in the garden,

  its 's' shape of despair

  landing lightly on the weeds

  and sprung impatiens. Knowledge

  spreads into the background

  and day begins.

  Across great distance, the whine

  of a saw, someone taking care

  of chaos. Elsewhere,

  someone isn't.

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  A Wind in Place

  after Stevens

  The day is green and blown

  but her mother was strong

  as these trees bending in the wind.

  The clouds are full of avowals

  but her father had the clarity

  of rain-scrubbed altitudes.

  There is nothing whim can't change

  but the buried, nothing it can't sway

  but the ground.

  Now their thoughts are thinnest air

  above the tangle of intelligence.

  Now their touch drifts

  blurred and down.

  The wall between the self and wind

  is just a limited perception, the eye's redress.

  In the wide light,

  in the blaring continuity of it,

  over the dark and scrambled green,

  white blooms like sudden freedoms

  lift the harsh bark

  as possibility raises the eye up

  from its body, distinguishes its backdrop

  from ordinary scenes

  and from the leaves, those same spun leaves

  that weigh the branches down.

  But in between the wind and eye

  is the interrupting wall

  and the figure in place behind it

  who sees the lashed events

  and feels unsafe.

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  Crater

  Old moon, old moon,

  what do I tell you?

  You sit there, scribed with night.

  Do you expect invention?

  Beauty as its own reign

  or arrangement? No praise

  then, just this stutter

  between stare and star, the imprint

  of my heel on relative dark.

  Fool moon, fool moon,

  what do you know

  of me or my crumbled ladders?

  You're not a smile, or a grimace,

  you're not even a leap,

  just some bruiting glow

  that hangs from its one

  dichotomy. You can't figure

  the tunes, the variant

  weights on a tongue.

  Poor moon, poor moon,

  what does your one eye mean?

  To have half a sense,

  a cruel bright, your whole vision

  wandering, or dispersed

  into clueless trinkets

  you can never collect.

  Won't you always be

  swivelling? Bold mood, your flood

  is the flood of the mind

  in its black habit:

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  lighting all, but uplifted by none.

  Lantern of the odd soul,

  miner of discontent,

  don't come out, don't come out.

  Stay hidden, in my cold coat

  pocket.

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  On a Worm Descending a Thread

  This gray light is full of invention,

  of the rustling of feathers and hues.

  There are voices no language can sing.

  The sun dips its face in the dark,

  in the alternate substance, the mirror.

  It is listening. It listens to water

  and it follows that sound to the sea

  where the moon waits, the delicate daughter,

  earth's eldest, who sprang out of grief

  and flew off through the torn, broken trees,

  past the ferns, past the sisterly branches,

  past the swan's neck, the forest of eyes

  and of wounds, and adjusted her grace

  to a height. to a distance, where sorrow

  can turn from its body, not touch.

  Her departure has scattered a shell

  in the sea, has inflected the deep

  murk of absence with silvery scale
s

  that will brush an oiled brethren all night.